Tonight I was upset and thinking in my mind why did this have to happen to me? We went to MPICU tonight and I said to Dad before we left my room that he will push me down and I would push myself back. On the way back to my room I didn't push myself and Dad disagreed and I got mad and wouldnt talk to Mom or Dad. I was very frustrated and Mom tried to ask what was wrong and I got mad. I wheeled off to the elevators and went down to 5th floor and looked out the window and was asking myself why me, why the challenges and I just cried. Then I went down to 2nd floor and was just about to go to another window when I passed MPICU doors and a worker from MPICU saw me and told me that Mom and Dad were looking for me. She said they were both worried and she took me back to my room. Mom, Dad and I talked and got it settled.
The verse "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11
Thank you for your prayers.
Keep hoping. Keep loving. Keep praying.
Hey bud
ReplyDeletei have a bit of an idea how it feels to think that eveything in your life is going wrong. i know what it's like to think that life is unfair, and to wonder what you did to deserve what life is giving you. it's completely natural to feel the way you are. the trick is trusting God and allowing Him to show you His way of seeing things. James 1:2 says "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." intead of asking yourself "why me?", ask yourself "what does God want me to learn from this?". i know it's hard, i struggle with it lots, but learning to see our struggles from God's point of view is an important part of growing as a follower of Christ. remember that pain is temporary, but the lessons you learn from that pain will be with you forever. think of a little kid who burns his hand on a stove. the burn will heal after a little while, but the kid will always remember to be more careful around stoves.
hang in there, Brent, and keep on trusting in God, cuz He'll never let you down, no matter what.
I'm praying for ya
Reid
Hi Brent,
ReplyDeleteI don't sent a comment often but I try and check the blog if not daily no more then 2 or 3 days later. As I pray each night your name is mentioned. I can't imagine all you've come through this far but remember there are better days ahead.
As you lay on your bed just look up and try to talk to your heavenly father, you can tell Him anything. Tell him how you feel, you may have to say you don't feel like praying, He understands. When you just ask Him to help you through the rest of this ordeal He will be there for you.
It was hard to hold back tears as I read about how you were feeling. Brent you were honest and God appreciates your honesty.God loves you, don't ever doubt that! Also there are many people who love you and care who you've never met, I am one of those people.
I have five grown children and as a mother I went through a recovery with a son who was in a car accident some years ago. God has done miracles in my son's life. God loves you so much and He's going to use this all for good. You can't see it when your in the middle of it all.
Just think when Jesus told His diciples when they got in the boat they were going to the other side. When the storm arose they freaked out. He never let them sink in the middle He did what He said, and took them to the other side.
God is bringing you through, He will not let you down in the middle of this trial. Just take a deep breath and say "I'm so glad Lord you understand my feelings, please continue to help me through." He loves when we talk to Him.
I'll be praying for more strength for you and mom and dad, as many others are also.
Love You
Marie
Alberta
Hey bud!
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to come up with a good reason why something like this would happen to you and your family. It's tough to have to face the challenges you are facing now. And, life isn't going to be the same as before. But we always have to remember, our lives are in God's hands. He does all things for a reason that may be impossible to understand at times, but we must always confide in him... place our trust in him. So if I can encourage you with anything, it'd be that although stuff like this is extremely hard to understand, we must believe that Jesus never lets go of us, and that he knows exactly what he's doing.
Philippians 4:13
Love, Your big Brother Josiah
Hang in there Brent. We are all praying for your recovery
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Hi Brent!
ReplyDeleteYou do not know me, but I have been reading your blog daily since the accident.
It is so easy to become caught up in the "why me" of any situation, especially one that has caused you and your family such pain and tribulations.
We have all struggled with the question when unforseen bad things happen to us,I myself asking that very question for the last two years after some events that have happened to me.
I am not sure if this will help you or not, but I have come to realize that no matter how much we ask the question, we will never get the answer we seek. We will never know why good things happen to innocent, good people no matter how many times we ask the same question.
All we can do is work with what we have left, and try to find a way to look forward to what lies in store for us, and know that after something so horrific has happened, there must be some good ahead of us.
God would not have put this burden on your family without a reason, although it is not known right now, but know that he has not foresaken you or yours.
You have made such great strides in your recovery, and I have faith that you will continue to do so once you get back home.
It is so natural to get angry and hateful because of the circumstances, but you will heal in time, both physically and mentally.
Stay strong and continue doing what needs to be done, you have proven time and again what a fighter you and your family are, do not give up now.
Thinking and praying for you and yours,
Renee - Paddockwood, SK
I've asked that question (except "why you?") and like the others, don't know that you or I will ever get an answer - at least not necessarily one that satisfies us.
ReplyDeleteSomething to remember though is that God is big enough to handle those questions. He's not scared off nor do they diminish His love for you. Some day (in His timing) He wants you to move to asking what you can do with your life and the lessons you have learned.
Someone told me not long ago to never forget in the good times the lessons I learned in the bad times, as well as not forgetting in the bad times the lessons I learned in the good times.
Think back on God's faithfulness in your life and the times you struggled before, even though they may now seem like nothing compared to what you are going through now. Remind yourself (or let God remind you) of what He has shown you and take the next step - with your hand in God's.
I love you bud. Always praying.
Auntie Jan
Hey Brent,
ReplyDeleteI'm touched by the depth of your pain and frustration and thankful you have parents, friends and a loving God to turn to for comfort and support. It's human to be confused, troubled, hurt and depressed but it's how we deal with these things that makes the difference. You have so many things going for you that have brought you to where you are today. Faith, courage, fortitude being three that I see you witness daily. Keep your eyes on God, keep asking for guidance and understanding, and don't think you need to hide your frustration and put on a brave face. Part of being honest is also admitting that you just don't "get it" and need to turn to God and others for support. From the previous responses I can see that there are many people ready, willing and able to provide you with whatever support they can.
Please remember we are praying for you daily!
The Dogniez's
Dear Brent, our hearts and love go out to you and your parents. It's ok to ask why, but just remember, GOD IS IN CONTROL, HE WILL SEE YOU THROUGH. There's a song, THROUGHT IT ALL, THROUGH IT ALL, I've learned to trust in Jesus, I've learned to trust in God, through it all, through it all, I've learned to depend upon his Word. (Your Mom and Dad might remember that song) God has brought you through so much, he's not going to leave you now. He is always there. Also, the chorus "HE IS ALL I NEED, , HE IS ALL I NEED< JESUS IS ALL I NEED. We pray daily for you and your family, even though we do not know you and have never met you. Keep Trusting in GOD.
ReplyDeletehey little man: i know that you are going thru a tough time lately. i know that "Rosie" was a special girl for everybody. but like what your auntie "dean" said " katie is in heaven and she is in Jesus' arms.." one day we shall see her again.. remember that your folks and grandparents love you... your a special man..God looked after you since Feb. and he will continue to look after you each day.. don't give your dad any more gray hair or hair loss... have a good day.. love uncle dwayne and auntie barb and kids...
ReplyDeletehey bud.
ReplyDeletei deffinetely know its tough to have to go through this stuff. its hard for me, i cant even imagine how hard this is for you. when this first happened, danica gave me a journal to write down my feelings and stuff in. in the front she wrote a note. i wanna tell you what it said:
in this time of pain there is nothing i can say or do that will help you or make you feel any better. i only want to encourage you to keep you heart and mind trusting God. you can question God and ask him why but you cannot blame him. this was not his will. God did not want to cause you this pain, but now that it is here trust God with it. "cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." (1 Peter 5:7)
its hard to understand why God couldn't of saved Katie. we have to remember that if God were to protect us from all our pain he would also have to protect us from love in our lives. God didn't promise us a cloak of protection but he did promise to be a father who will never leave us or forsake us. Psalm 34 says "the lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. a righteous man may have many troubles but the lord delivers them from them all."
i want to encourage you to use this journal to cry out to God, get angrybe sad, have memories, learn and cope with this situationl. remember that healing is not the absense of memory but the absense of pain.
i love you and i will be here for you whenever you need to talk or hangout. don't be afraid to ask. i'm so sorry that you have to walk thru this time of pain, just know you are not alone in it. much love.
that's what she told me, and i thought that it would be encouraging to you. really focus on the part that says "healing is not the absense of memory, but the absense of pain"
i hope this helps you as much as it has helped me. and don't forget that God can handle all your questions and frustration and he will not get angry at you or annoyed with you or love you any less. nothing you do could ever make that happen. remember that there are many people who love you and are praying for you all the time.
you're amazing bud, can't wait to see you again. keep your head up.
love, kiersten
Dear Brent,
ReplyDeleteThis post really touched my heart. It seems to me like that you have been very accepting of your situation, and have really dealt with things with a lot of grace and maturity. I am not surprised that you are wondering, why you. Sometimes we don't know why and will never know why. I'd like to think it is because your situation has touched a lot of people and made them see God's work in you and your life. I know every day when I read the blog, I am humbled and I pray for you and your family and it makes me feel more grateful for what I do have.
Hang in there, stay strong, you have tons of people praying for you and thinking of you.
Melissa
Saskatoon, SK
Brent,
ReplyDeleteIt is wonderful to see you post your own update. Anyone in your shoes would ask, "Why me?" You have had a burden far greater to bear than your age should ever allow. Your parents have walked this path with the highest level of admiration that one could receive.
Stay strong. We have seen such progress in you over the last few months. You're still with us, and the road ahead is paved by Someone who knows far more and has plans in mind for your life.
Still trusting and praying with you all,
Unknown friends in Campbell River, B.C.
Hello Brent.
ReplyDeleteSo often it seems that life is only made up of things to worry about. Life has many disappointments for all of us ... death, illnesses, betrayals, tragedies, and feelings of worthlessness and despair. Sometimes life can seem so very grim, and so many times we tend to wallow in pools of self-pity.
I would just like to say I believe that our time here on earth gives us the opportunity to grow spiritually. We can experience much personal growth because of all the suffering, worries, and difficulties we have to go through during our mortal lives. It is God's way of fine-tuning us so we become more compassionate, more caring, more loving, and more aware of others' pain. After all, how could we ever dry the tears of others if we had never cried ourselves?
We all find ourselves in the valley of despair sometimes. It may sometimes seem that we are forever worrying, learning lessons, suffering pain, and facing challenges. But we must try to remember that the fertilizer that helps us "grow" is in those valleys, not on the mountain tops.
During the times that we feel scared and confused, we will always end up wiser and we will grow more from the experiences. We will understand more about people and life, become more sensitive, and we'll be able to enjoy life more after we go through the hard times.
We have to experience sadness so that we may better measure joy. Life has a way of balancing the sorrow with the joy, the disappointments with the hope, and the emptiness with the meaning.
Hang in there Big Guy
Your friends The Mcleans
Thanks for sharing so openly, Brent. I think we would all do well if we would share our feelings like that instead of pretending that we're okay with how things are when we're not. Now I know how to pray more effectively for you. We continue to hold you and your parents up to the Lord, and I know that He has plans for you and your parents, just as He had for your dear sister, Katie. I wonder why God let this happen to your family, but I guess that will be revealed as time goes on. Meanwhile, your family will have to keep pressing on towards the heavenly goal (even better than watching the Roughriders press on towards their goal, eh?).
ReplyDeleteI have a cross-stitch in my basement with the Jeremiah verse that you quoted - your dear Grandma Peterson made it for me (and all the other CPC grads in your dad's class) when we graduated. Yes, God knows the plans He has for you, and you can stand firm on that.
I am so glad that you have the parents that you do - they are awesome. Did you know that your dad was one of the people at college that never forgot about me when I was in the hospital for three weeks during our last year of College? My appendix almost ruptured, and I had to have surgery two more times after I had it removed. I was very thankful that your dad realized how lonely it can get in a hospital. Trying not to laugh at his corny sense of humour was a bit of a pain (literally) because of my surgery, but God helped me! ;) Maybe even then, God was preparing your dad for this long journey that you are all travelling on...
So glad to see all the awesome progress that you've been making! Wow - walking!!! Woohoo!! However, you will have to tell your dear dad that he BETTER CHANGE HIS ATTITUDE ABOUT THE GOLD AND BLUE!!!!! We're hoping to come visit sometime in the next month, and maybe Jason will wear a BLUE BOMBER jersey to teach him a lesson!!! ;)
Take care! And keep up the EXCELLENT progress!
Natalie for the Duecks, who live close to the WINNIPEG BLUE BOMBERS!!
Keep going Brent! God is with you, I don't know what I would do iF i was you God Bless!! I'm 15 and can't imagine going through what you r. keep it up
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